Just about life

Do you know what the feeling is when people broke an appointment at last minute? After you had prepared everything including yourself? Broke an appointment was not the issue I concerning to but at least try to not make it at last minute. Broke an appointment for a guy who always broken your heart was made me unbearable. Maybe I’m not in love, I’m not you. Thus, I do not understand why girls always blame themselves for guy's mistake and never learnt to treat self better. He does not deserve your tears. He still can make fun around with friends, sleep tight and eat something nice when you are suffocating alone. What is the point to suffering yourself for nothing? That's really ridiculous. He just prefers who easy come easy go. Don't treat yourself as a girl like that.

Girl, actually you can always be happy with your life, free to make any decision, proud with yourself. Just depend on how you think and what you choose in life. But now, what are you doing? Crying for a stupid fellla? Tell you what, I will straight away dumping the bastard into rubbish bin if I’m yours. We have brain, we have knowledge, and we have our own ability. Why we need to depend on guy for everything, especially an asshole? We can create a lot of possible instead of waiting someone to create a land to us! Whose will know whether the land is suit to us? Possibly, the land will belong to another girl later?

Anyway, I didn't change my plan yesterday even though you had broke an appointment with me. I went to Mid-Valley and met with Jaslyn since I had never met with her after last year Dec. She changed a lot compare with last year. Don't you think so? Looks better than previous who always wear a big size T-Shirt and 3 quarter pant to school. I was forcing her to take some picture with me so that I can update my blog. Camwhore here^^ but I did not satisfied with myself here. Looks suck.. Is time to salon...

Window shopping? Nah~It's impossible happen on me!!! 4 items I bought yesterday at Sasa. Just four items but costed me amount RM238.oo after 20% discount >.< comestic really cost women a burden T_T

Yesterday was my youngest broth Jack’s birthday.
Happy B’day to my lovely broth!
May all dreams come true!

MY DATE?

After cutting the cake, I went out with my friend for his dinner, my supper around 9.30pm. We had talked a lot with past. We were together laughing so hard due to our stupidity from the past and also, even the present, now. We just like to foolish people around and ourselves sometimes. Everything was so nice until he was kissing my cheek without my notice and holding my hand without permit. What would a girl do in this situation? Slap his face straight away? Run away from the first place happens? Crying? Embarrassing? But I didn’t. I not even felt angry with it but it was enough to make me calm down emotional difficultly afterward.

I really couldn’t understand. How could you confess to me while you still have a girlfriend? Maybe lonely will kill a person and made you having some wrong illussion on me. and it might be the reason too why I didn't slap you for the kiss on cheek. Honestly your hug was warm enough to take away the cold but there's no more further, shouldn't have any further. Full stop been puting. Lonely is not the reason to make sin or do watever you want, or what I want. My mind is still conscious and no more blind. You were never giving up on me no matter how many times I was rejected & explained with my situation. Sometimes, I really do feel pity for your girlfriend. I’m not going to become another one of her. I need fidelity. You can say that I’m too defensing myself but there’s nothing wrong to defense myself from being hurting. You said I cheating myself, cheating my own feeling just because I’m scare. That’s why I’m not even daring to look into your eyes to answer your question. This will be my last time clarify with you at here and hope you will understand cause I really appreciating you as my friend. I never cheating myself and I couldn’t cheating myself too. My rejection is doesn’t matter with your girlfriend but is me. I really waiting for someone meanwhile work hard to fight for my own future now. I have many dreams and goals need to pursue. Now is the time to start implement. I have to restructure my life to be better of me. Tough, confidence, smart, and independent!

Just you are not the one I waiting for.

treat her and yourself better k?

MY INTERNSHIP?

There’s just another 2 weeks for my internship in G2. Within the past 12 weeks, I gained a lot, especially with my EQ management and the attitude on our responsibility. My supervisor praises me on last week with my good job! I feel happy and worth with my effort. The most important is they appreciate your effort too. Anyway, my supervisor hope that I can learnt and absorb as much as possible within my last 10days. At least I can leave with proud at the end of day.